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You know how in the pilot episode of New Girl Jess is broken down by her recent break-up, but then moves into an awesome, swanky apartment with three random guys who she has never met before and they end up being like the coolest people and friends ever?

Yeah, that's actually my life right now.

I just started at a new advertising internship, all thanks to my wonderful high school friend Ashley who alerted me to the intern position after reading my last blog post. I honestly can't thank you enough, Ashley. You're the best! As I mentioned in my last blog post , the marketing internship I began at the beginning of the summer was a complete dud. The people there never acknowledged my existence and I'm about 90% sure that no one knew who I was after I repeatedly introduced myself. Oh well, whatever, water under the bridge, as they say. 

Anywho, I applied for the advertising internship at CivitasNow, and by some stroke of incredible luck, I got it! And let me tell you: I've only been in for three days so far, but it's already been the best part of my summer by far. 

You see, last week, this was me:

Is this whole blog post just New Girl GIFs? Most likely.

I went through an extremely emotionally taxing break-up, and I felt completely broken down. I felt like a huge source of my happiness disappeared within the course of a text message conversation. There are a lot of painful things to endure in this world, but quite possibly one of the most painful is learning that someone you love no longer loves you anymore. I haven't been that sad in a very long time.

The guys at CivitasNow have no clue that I went through all of this, and they probably don't realize how much working there has helped me to recover from the sad emotions I've been experiencing in the past couple of weeks. I know that I don't know them all too well yet, but they've already welcomed me to the team and have made me feel like a valued member. They're hilarious, goofy, efficient, smart, and just generally awesome. I sure did get lucky.

Since going through all of that relationship heartbreak, I have realized something that took me way too long to learn: I have to stop acquiring my happiness from others. Especially from boyfriends or boys I'm interested in. All that is going to produce is heartbreak. And honestly, I'm sick and tired of having my heart broken. So, I've decided to start placing my happiness on a higher pedestal than it previously was. I've decided to focus on my life and excelling in what I do. I've decided to focus on my friends and family more. I've decided to discover more of my passions. And I've decided to do even more of what I love to do. Working at CivitasNow has helped me to realize that and to recover myself.

The other day, I whipped out my long board and tried to ride it again (I'm still in the process of teaching myself how to ride it). I also had an all-day sewing marathon and made a thing for the office.

I've been exploring my surroundings more. The other day, I went to the abandoned bridge on Orange Road near my neighborhood and just appreciated its fragile beauty.

Ye olde Olentangy River.

I also ventured to the Ohio State Fair with my brother-in-law, niece, nephew, brother, and sister-in-law last weekend. It was pretty rad, to say the least.

There's always money in the banana stand.

Lil Maya McGee

And Mr. Grumpster Sammy

I'd rather not get crabs from the State Fair, thank you very much...

Blue Steel

Freaking terrifying slide.

Over 2,000 pounds of butter. If that doesn't define Ohio, then I don't know what does.

Unfortunately, a torrential downpour occurred when we were there, and we had to take shelter.

All-in-all, though, it was a really fun day.

Tomorrow, I leave for our annual Lindsey Family vacation to Lake Tahoe, California. I can't tell you how ready I am to spend two weeks in the Sierra Mountains surrounded by my family, nature, and pure bliss. It's about damn time I work on making myself happy for myself. It's a long, arduous process, but I'm determined to do all that I can to make this goal a reality. Thank you to everyone who has shown me love and support lately. I love you all more than you know. <3

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"Optimism is the one quality more associated with success and happiness than any other."