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So, it's Valentine's Day. Or, as I like to call it, National "Show Everyone On Social Media How Loved I Am" Day. (For the record, I am so guilty of this). In my 20 years of life, I have dated two men, and had a very prolonged fling with another man. And it hindsight, it was all a major pain in the ass. I'm probably saying this because all the guys I've been with have obviously been very wrong for me, but still. Relationships take a lot of work. Again, I'm probably saying this because I've only been with dirtbags. I've kind of come to the bitter assumption that men in my age group just aren't romantic. I have amazing guy friends, but the instant a guy goes from being just a friend to being more than that, something always goes wrong. I instantly see all of their flaws (well, I guess not all too instantly...) and I realize they aren't good for me. Am I really that picky? I guess I am.
But honestly, I would rather be with no one than be with a guy who's wrong for me. I am very picky, but I like to think that it'll pay off one day.
It'll totally pay off, right? Right?! I guess I'll go to the cat shelter now to start my collection...
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| I actually really hate cats...so, dogs? |
Here's the thing: I'm not a hookup type person, which, in college, is very rare. For the record, I support anyone and everyone who is a hookup type person. I think it makes a lot of sense in college (as long as you're safe about it, of course). Very few people look for committed relationships in college because everyone is so young, no one wants to be tied down, and no one really has time for a relationship. I mean, I know that I don't. Hell, some days I don't even have time to shower (that's right boys, if I haven't already scared you off, I bet I did with that comment...). Between school and a cappella and STITCH and DM and lab work and family and friends and sleeping and trying to be a normal person, I barely have any time for myself, let alone another human being.
Sure, the cuddling and kissing and holding hands and flirting and adorable text messages is so wonderful and special. And I know of a lot of adorable couples who are so happy (I'm looking at you, Demma! Willard Rat Trap wedding, circa 2018. It's gonna happen.) I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm just not in that stage of my life yet. Whenever I get into a committed relationship, I sacrifice my life for the other person. I just can't help it--that's who I am and what I do.
In my life right now, I can't afford to do that. I have places to go, people to see, and things to do. Hopefully in a couple of years I will find a balance in my life to have a guy, but right now, a man would only get in the way of my future and goals.
Damn. If there are any guys reading this, they are now officially scared off. With all of this being said, men, I still love going on dates and flirting and all that jazz. And who knows, maybe I will find the guy of my dreams in college. But, at this point, I highly doubt that. I'm just such a shy person around guys I find super attractive, so nothing ever happens. Maybe it's better that way? Who knows... #foreveralone
Any way, what did I do on this fine Valentine's Day, you ask? Well, I'm home for the weekend, which is absolutely amazing. I've been looking forward to coming home for so long now, and it was a complete coincidence that the weekend I was able to come home was also Valentine's Day weekend. I love nothing more than spending time with my family, so I consider myself extremely lucky.
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| My funny valentine. |
And, I mean, let's be real, it's not like I'd be going on any dates tonight if I was still in E-Town. So, this was perfect. I spent the day with my family and my puppy and you know what? It was the best damn Valentine's Day ever.
My mom took me to my favorite coffee shop, Stauf's, and it was magical as always.
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| Stauf's |
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| The Milky Way. |
Then, we came home, and I made playlists all day. Not even joking. I sat on the couch for hours and made different playlists for different situations whilst cuddling with my puppy. It was so relaxing listening to music. For your musical pleasure, here are the Valentine's Day playlists I curated:
For The Love Birds:
"And I Love Her" by The Beatles
"At Last" by Etta James
"Bruises" by Chairlift
"By Your Side" by Beachwood Sparks
"Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol
"Come What May" Moulin Rouge Version
"Crown of Love" by Arcade Fire
"Do You Believe in Magic? by The Lovin' Spoonful
"Don't Fear The Reaper" by Blue Oyster Cult
"Dreamers" by Savoir Adore
"Drops of Jupiter" by Train
"Every Day" by Magic Man
"Everything" by Michael Bublé
"Fineshrine" by Purity Ring
"Friday I'm In Love" by The Cure
"Girlfriend" by Phoenix
"Heroes" by David Bowie
"Hold On When You Get Love and Let Go When You Give It" by Stars
"Honey & I" by HAIM
"I Always Knew" by The Vaccines
"I Will" by The Beatles
"I Will Follow You Into the Dark" by Death Cab for Cutie
"I Would Do Anything for You" by Foster the People
"I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz
"L-O-V-E" by Nat King Cole
"Last Leaf" by OK Go
"Let's Do It (Let's Fall In Love)" by Ella Fitzgerald
"Love Is a Place" by Metric
"Love Is Easy" by The Mowgli's
"Love Like A Sunset Part II" by Phoenix
"The Luckiest" by Ben Folds
"Mad Love" by Neon Trees
"A Message" by Coldplay
"Michelle" by The Beatles
"My Love" by Justin Timberlake
"Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels)" by Arcade Fire
"Romeo and Juliet" by The Killers
"Sea of Love" by The National
"Simplest Love" by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeroes
"Sweet Disposition" by The Temper Trap
"There Is a Light That Never Goes Out" by The Smiths
"Till Kingdom Come" by Coldplay
"Your Song" Moulin Rouge Version
"2 Atoms In a Molecule" by Noah And The Whale
For The "It's Complicated" Situations:
"The Bad in Each Other" by Feist
"Bad Romance" by Lady Gaga
"Call Me" by Blondie
"Call Me Maybe" by Carly Rae Jepsen
"Change Your Mind" by The Killers
"Cheating On You" by Franz Ferdinand
"Cheetah" by Voxhaul Broadcast
"Complicated" by Avril Levigne
"F*cking Boyfriend" by The Bird and the Bee
"Figure 8" by Ellie Goulding
"Heart In A Cage" by The Strokes
"I Know You Don't Love Me" by Peter Bjorn & John
"If You Wanna" by The Vaccines
"Leaving On The 5th" by Voxhaul Broadcast
"Let Go" by Frou Frou
"Little Games" by the Colourist
"Little Secrets" by Passion Pit
"Love Song" by Sara Bareilles
"Lover's Spit" by Broken Social Scene
"Lovesick" by Friendly Fires
"Mercy" by Duffy
"The Most Beautiful Girl (In The Room)" by Flight Of The Conchords
"Mr. Brightside" by The Killers
"My Moon My Man" by Feist
"No You Girls" by Franz Ferdinand
"Normal Person" by Arcade Fire
"Out of My League" by Fitz & The Tantrums
"Paris (Aeroplane Remix)" by Friendly Fires
"Pass This On" by The Knife
"Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want" by The Smiths
"Post Break-Up Sex" by The Vaccines
"Primadonna" by Marina and The Diamonds
"Settle Down" by Kimbra
"Sleeping With a Friend" by Neon Trees
"Somebody Told Me" by The Killers
"Tongue Tied" by Grouplove
"Too Young" by Phoenix
"Toxic" by The Chapin Sisters
"We Sink" by CHVRCHES
For Your Hook-Up Situations:
"Affection" by Crystal Castles
"Bad Touch" by Bloodhound Gang
"Blurred Lines" by Robin Thicke
"Do What U Want" by Lady Gaga
"Don't Stop the Music" by Rihanna
"Electric Feel" by MGMT
"Foxy Lady" by Jimi Hendrix
"Get Lucky" by Daft Punk
"Hot in Herre" by Nelly
"Hot Stuff" by Donna Summer
"Hungry Eyes" by Eric Carmen
"I'm a Slave for You" by Britney Spears
"Infinity" by The xx
"Intro" by The xx
"Jenny" by WALK THE MOON
"Kiss Kiss" by Yeah Yeah Yeahs
"Last Night" by The Strokes
"Lay It Down" by Peter Bjorn & John
"Let's Go To Bed" by The Cure
"Locked Out Of Heaven" by Bruno Mars
"Lose Yourself to Dance" by Daft Punk
"Lost Kitten" by Metric
"Naughty Girl" by Beyonce
"Next In Line" by WALK THE MOON
"Ooh La La" by Goldfrapp
"Porno" by Arcade Fire
"S&M" by Rihanna
"Sex On Fire" by Kings of Leon
"SexyBack" by Justin Timberlake
"Shiver Shiver" by WALK THE MOON
"Short Skirt, Long Jacket" by Cake
"Succexy" by Metric
"Super Bass" by Nicki Minaj
"Superfreak" by Rick James
"You Shook Me All Night Long" by AC/DC
For The Broken Hearts:
"Ain't No Sunshine When She's Gone" by Bill Withers
"All By Myself" by Eric Carmen
"Anywayican" by WALK THE MOON
"Apologize" by OneRepublic
"Blueside" by Rooney
"Boys Don't Cry" by The Cure
"Chain of Fools" by Aretha Franklin
"Changing of the Seasons" by Two Door Cinema Club
"Cold As Ice" by Foreigner
"Dancing By Myself" by Billy Idol
"Dancing On My Own" by Robyn
"Days Are Gone" by HAIM
"Dead And Gone" by The Black Keys
"Don't Look Back" by She & Him
"Evil Woman" by Electric Light Orchestra
"F*ck You" by Cee Lo Green
"F*ck You" by Lily Allen
"Gonna Get Along Without You Now" by She & Him
"Goodbye My Lover" by James Blunt
"Heart of Glass" by Blondie
"Hex Girlfriend" by Neon Indian
"High and Dry" by Radiohead
"How Soon Is Now?" by The Smiths
"Hurting" by Friendly Fires
"I Love It" by Icona Pop
"I'm Down" by The Beatles
"I'm So Sad, So Very, Very Sad" by The Black Lips
"If I Ever Feel Better" by Phoenix
"L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N" by Noah And The Whale
"Let's Call It Off (Girl Talk Remix)" by Peter Bjorn & John
"Lies" by CHVRCHES
"Lonely Boy" by The Black Keys
"Miss You" by Foster the People
"My Broken Heart" by Noah And The Whale
"Part of Me" by Katy Perry
"Second Chances" by Peter Bjorn & John
"Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band (Reprise)" by The Beatles
"Single Ladies (Put a Ring On It)" by Beyonce
"Somebody That I Used To Know" by Gotye featuring Kimbra
"Somebody to Love" by Queen
"Summertime Sadness" by Lana Del Rey
"You're So Vain" by Carly Simon
"Breathing Underwater" by Metric
"Don't Think Twice, It's All Right" by Bob Dylan
"Waiting For My Chance To Come" by Noah And The Whale
"Everything's Not Lost" by Coldplay
"It's Time" by Imagine Dragons
"Here Comes The Sun" by The Beatles
"Turn, Turn, Turn" by The Byrds
"Don't Panic" by Coldplay
For Those Crushing On Someone:
"American Boy" by Estelle featuring Kanye West
"And Then He Kissed Me" by The Crystals
"Anthems For A Seventeen Year Old Girl" by Broken Social Scene
"Anything Could Happen" by Ellie Goulding
"Betty's A Bombshell" by Grouplove
"Bohemian Like You" by The Dandy Warhols
"Campus" by Vampire Weekend
"Can You Tell" by Ra Ra Riot
"Don't Be Shy" by The Libertines
"Elevate" by St. Lucia
"Eyes" by The Naked & Famous
"Eyes" by Rogue Wave
"Falling" by HAIM
"Falling In Love At a Coffee Shop" by Landon Pigg
"Fallout" by Neon Indian
"Fell In Love With a Girl" by The White Stripes
"Fireflies" by Owl City
"Forever" by HAIM
"Girls Like You" by The Naked & Famous
"Giving Up The Gun" by Vampire Weekend
"Heartbeats" by The Knife
"Heaven" by The Walkmen
"Here Comes Your Man" by Pixies
"High School Lover" by Cayucas
"I Got" by Young the Giant
"I Want to Hold Your Hand" by The Beatles
"I Want You!" by Peter Bjorn & John
"I Will Possess Your Heart" by Death Cab for Cutie
"I've Just Seen a Face" by The Beatles
"In The Aeroplane Over The Sea" by Neutral Milk Hotel
"Instant Crush" by Daft Punk
"Junk Of The Heart (Happy)" by The Kooks
"Just Like Heaven" by The Cure
"Keep Together" by Hunter Hunted
"Lady Daydream" by Twin Sister
"Leggy Blonde" by Flight Of The Conchords
"Like A Star" by Corinne Bailey Rae
"Love Somebody" by Maroon 5
"Most Wanted" by Cults
"My Number" by Foals
"(Nice Dream)" by Radiohead
"Northwestern Girls" by Say Hi
"Note To Self" by Jake Bugg
"Objects Of My Affection" by Peter Bjorn & John
"Ocean Repeating (Big-Eyed Girl)" by Wild Nothing
"Pitter Patter Goes My Heart" by Broken Social Scene
"Polish Girl" by Neon Indian
"Ramona" by Beck
"A Real Hero" by College
"Seaside" by The Kooks
"She's Got You High" by Mumm-Ra
"Someone You'd Admire" by Fleet Foxes
"Somewhere Only We Know" by Keane
"Sparks" by Coldplay
"Sprawl II (Mountains Beyond Mountains)" by Arcade Fire
"Such Great Heights" by The Postal Service
"Sway" by Mates of State
"Sweater Weather" by The Neighbourhood
"Take A Chance On Me" by ABBA
"Take Me Out" by Franz Ferdinand
"Taking Pictures Of You" by The Kooks
"Teenage Dirtbag" by Scala And Kolacny Brothers
"Team" by Lorde
"Teenage Dream" by T.Rex
"Wait For Love" by St. Lucia
"Wonderwall" by Oasis
"Worship You" by Vampire Weekend
"Yellow" by Coldplay
"You Make My Dreams Come True" by Hall & Oates
"Young Folks" by Peter Bjorn & John
"Your Eyes" by Bombay Bicycle Club
"5 Years Time" by Noah And The Whale
"40 Day Dream" by Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeroes
Yep, that's right: I spent my whole day compiling these playlists. Please listen to these songs. I promise you they'll fit in each given situation perfectly.
Also, since I was unable to make a Galentine's Day post yesterday, right now I'd like to do a quick tribute to all the amazing women in my life!
Starting with my mama:
You have been there through it all. The good times, the bad times, the in-between. Everything. I love you with all my heart, and I am so grateful to have you as my mama. You continue to inspire me constantly with your strength and wisdom. You really are the best. <3
My sister, Sommer:
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| Us then. |
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| Us now. |
My niece, Maya:
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| What a diva. |
Maya, although you're WAY too young to know how to read, I just want you to know that I love you so much (even when you are screaming in my face). You are adorable, silly, and you take after your mama's "take no shit" personality.
All of my brothers's beautiful significant others, Kalli, Stephanie, and Rachael:
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| Kalli. |
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| Steph. |
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| Rachael. |
And last, but certainly not least: all of my incredible friends:
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| pfambam. |
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| The Sassmasters. |
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| My dearest Laura. |
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| The best Roomz ever. |
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| Roomz and my Allie Ballie supporting me. <3 |
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| Shelbie Boo Boo |
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| And, of course, Ruthie Pop. |
So, my rant about wanting to be young and free and single is over now. It's about time I focus on myself and my needs instead of giving myself away all the time. Happy Valentine's Day to all the singles, couples, and everyone in between. No matter what state you're in, remember to love yourself. Because then, and only then, will you ever be able to love someone else.
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"Wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person. Wait for the person who will be your best friend, the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances."
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